Saturday, June 30, 2012


Im sorry to all those who are still reading and are wondering where has this girl been. I suck at updateing and especially in the last month. Last time i checked in i was talking about being back in college for a summer class and being so happy to be back because i was going to be able to focus on weight loss...The goal i set up was that by the end of the first week in july i would be 130 lbs.

Well here is my sucks....Really ive been stressing with school like crazy who knew summer classes would be this stressful well now i know what to expect and i can really say i have been having to focus on school and not so much on lossing weight. Basically this month was about focusing on school and i feel unacumplished i wish i could come on here and say o i did so good in school and i was able to reach my weight loss goal. But here i am realizing i only have one week left at school and than i will find myself being home.

dont get me wrong i still have all the time in the world to loss the last 20lbs but i know that as soon i go home instead of lossing i end up gaining and that just sucks and i know being home is my weekness and i need to work on that but its not easy.

But enough about me feeling down about waisting all june because it was waisted in regards to weight loss but thankfully i have spent my time focusing on my class and not just being lazy and so thats a little better. for most of june i have not extercised the way i should have but i did manage to keep my food intake extremly healthy, however this week that past i was feeling depressed and i ate food i knew i shouldnt have, and for that reason i have decided to go on an all vegtable and fruit no meat or processed food schedule for my last week here. I was watching a movie yesterday and it inspired me to do some kind of a clense and i think this will give me the boost i need to continue focusing on my weight loss. It was called "FAT SICK AND DEING" something like that and this one guy ended up doing a juicing for 90 days and his healthy really improved and well i was planning on doing something similar but i need to first buy a juicer and be sure buying veggies and fruits is on my budget especially when i get home. But ill figure it out once i have to cross that bridge as for now since i dont have a juice i will only focus on eating the whole fruit and veggies. Wish me luck and i will keep all of you updated on how this is going so far its only going to be for one week and depending on how i feel about it i might continue it at home but ill have to see how i feel.

Thursday, June 14, 2012


This is my second week into starting this weight loss journey once again...The start of this month (June) after being home and giving up on the extercise and the healthy eating i got up to 142lbs which truthfuly talking i cant complain because that still an awesome number but it makes me upset that i worked soooo hard in april and May to get down to 135lbs only to get back up after less than a 1 month being back home.

But im turning the leaf and letting the anger go and realizing that here i am i have not given up and June is my month to focus and get back on track. June 1 i weighed in at 142lbs i was going to update last friday but "TOM" was visiting and i didnt feel the weight was correct and i was bloated and not in the mood to post the weight...Today its Thursday June 14, and its about 2 weeks since my last weight in and im at 136.2lbs

im so happy and excited thats 6lbs down thats 3 lbs each week i cant be any more proud. I have been working like crazy and my mind is focused on so much and i want to continue doing this great but i know from here on out things are going to go slow because there is only so much weight i can loss.

ive been feeling sleepy and not in the mood to study even though i want to focus 100% on school but i cant because i have the weight on my mind. I choose to go the gym over studying, i choose to take a nap and recover my body to do a 3rd workout instead of studying. I NEED TO STOP REFOCUS AND TAKE THINGS SLOW.

with this said my goal this week is to slow down with the weight loss and focus on school ill only be here 1 month i can manage to put the weight loss on the back burner and focus on passing this class. I need to i have not choice and hopefully i can give my 100% once i get back home on the weight loss since all i will have is work to worry about.

well with that i hope you all have a great rest of the week and weekend and whats awesome is the boyfriend is visiting and this will give me a chance to relax and let go.

Thursday, June 7, 2012


Ive been gone for about 1 month and im sorry because i feel as though i tend to do that alot i get on here and than out of no where i drop of the earth :)...This time i was just in vacation mode and didnt feel like updating mainly because my weight loss went down hill. I was home for 1 month i went from being 136 to 142. Im frustrated because i worked so freaking hard to get down to 136 it took me over 2 months and than in less than 1 month i went way up and here i am at 142lbs regreting every day i waisted.

However right know im taking a summer class back in school for 1 month and im focused and ready to drop 10lbs this means i would be 132lbs by july. Ive been back in school and doing my regular routine since Tuesday june 5th. I have set up such a big goal with the 10 lbs so i realized i need to work extra hard and focus and give all i have. So far the week has been amazing except for "TOM" has arrived and i have been bloating like crazy and craving and all that fun stuff.

My workout routine

I have classes early in the morning so i wake up at 5am and go for a 1hr walk/run. I walk half the time and run the other half. From 7-12 im in class. I go to the gym for 1hr in the afternoon. And finally at night i do the 30 day shred. (im on day 3)

Im not counting calories i have never nor will i start...I listen to my body and feed it accordingly i try to eat every 2 to 3 hours 4 meals 2 snacks. I eat more protein and carbs know that i workout alot more because i need the energy and also i need to give my muscles the right nutrients. So with that said i am taking a multivitamine pill its the 1 a Day Women's.

Thats it for know im probably going to weight in fridays. Also ill be posting some updated pictures and im keeping track of measurments for the 30 Day Shred. Heres to me being back and to all of you who are doing so great...lets accomplish all these goals and kick some butt!!!

Tuesday, May 8, 2012





Finals week

This week has been nooooo good. I have finals to study for and the stress level has serously been at its all time high. I have noticed that i have been eating like crazy and my excuss is i have not time bla bla bla but i shouldnt come on i have come so far to suddely give up because i am faced with problems.

And to add to the stress level i broke up with the boyfriend. It wasn't a fight or anything it was almost like a mutual understanding that things where just not working out. Serously though this guy is the lov of my life so im sure this is not going to last. Normally we end up being friends, fixing our problems and end up back together but lets see where this takes us.

basically i came on here to do a weigh in since i did one on tuesday. This morning i was 136.4 lbs that is a .4 gain, as soon as finals are over i have to focus because im so close to my goal weight and im not ready to give up. Lets hope that by next tuesday i will see some changes and if not at least i can say i am 43 lbs down from the begining so i cant be mad or upset.

hope you all have an awesome week.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Hello MAY

May is here and it seems as though april came and left and i was unaware. I decided to do a weigh in today so i could have a starting weight for this month i weighed in this morning at 136lbs. I am very happy with this number i was shooting for 135 so i was not too far off. I hopeing that by the end of May i will be at 130lbs and finally reach my goal weight. But serously i want to start concentrating more on switching my workout and focusing on weight training alot more once school is done.

Im starting may off awesome i started running on the tredmill....I starting off slow and steady switching from walking 5 min to jugging 5 minutes and i must say i love the burn i feel on my legs and hopefully this will shock my body and it will finally decide to change especially in the leg area but lets see how well this goes... Hope you all have an awesome week !!!

Saturday, April 28, 2012


Ok so im getting ahead of myself somewhat but not really may is going to be here on tuesday. Time flys by so fast and i feel as though i havent made so much progress. But thats all in my head and thaughts like these are the ones that hurt my journey sooo i will sit here and reflect upon my journey and see how far i have come.

So i was suppose to weigh in on Friday but guess what i moved it to tuesday....I will know at what weight i will be starting May and asses how i well or bad i did in april that way i will reflect and see what changes i can make and all that good stuff.

On another note ***u dont have to read this but i thougth i would put how i have been feeling lately***

I feel that my body is starting to slow down, im so close to reaching what i had set for myself to reach 130lbs and even though i push myself and i try and do everything right i feel like my body or at this point my mind is right on the edge of giving up. I have alot more lazy days than i normally do i dont allow myself to have them but i have to constantly fight with my mind and tell it that this is for my own good and i will not give up. Some times i realize i need to change things up in order to not have to struggle with a plateau but its so hard especially when you are in love with your workout scheduale and your eating schedule and the results they have provided. But i think its finally time for me to switch things up but i dont know how. I love the eliptical and hate the tredmill and even though i know i should push myself to try something new and strengthen myself in all areas. But i feel that when i dont enjoy the workout im more likely to give up or try and come up with any excuse to skip it. WHAT TO DO??? ill see how this last week and a half of school go and once i get home ill try new things such as running outside or starting workout videos ive been thinking of combining Insanity and 30 day shred. and this is only because i have no gym access back at home.

omg talking about gym access my friend back home the one friend who has always been the big girl just like me. ( a liitle bit about her she lost weight our senior year of high school and to be truthful i was jelouse she had so much attention and suddenly i was the only big girl in the group. However she started gaining weight throughout the last 2 years ) During spring break i went to see her and she didnt mention anything to me but my brother came home and was like ooo she was talking to one of your other friends about how you lost so much weight and that you look so different. That made me feel so good i dont know why but just knowing that people notice make this journey all worth it. But than on the other hand this might sound selfish but what ever this is the way i feel and i cant help it, she suddently after seeing me she want to lose weight too. But she has decided she suddenlty out of no where cares about animals and wants to become a vegan WTF. And than she messages me randomly and is like o i really want someone to workout with this summer we should be workout buddies. And to be truthful i said yes but at the same time i love working out by myself i have time to listen to my music and clear my head and push myself to my fullest. but when you are with someone else they are talking to you and than when they want to go ahead and do something else you feel obligated to go with them or at least slow down especially if you two are running together. IDK if i like this whole workout buddy but ill give it a try and see how it goes.

This post was super long sorry...hope you all have an awesome weekend enjoy the last couple of days left in Apirl and let make May count

Saturday, April 21, 2012


So like ive said over and over again if i had to give any advice to those starting out or those who are going through stressful moments like i am right now. Eat healthy: healthy to me includes a small portion of protein with each meal and alot of veggies. And most of all Drink lots and lots of water.

here is an example of what my day would be like
Times would vary so i wouldnt exactly know

Gym (6:30) ( elliptical 60 min) usually i burn 700cal or 650

breakfest ( this changes alot but usually a boiled egg with avacado and veggies sandwich)

Early Lunch ( usually this changes: when i have a long day i eat a bagel toasted with a very small amount of cream cheese, on my shorter days i will eat 2 different fruits ( strawberries, banana, kiwi, apple, orange)

snack: I normally grab some string cheese, nuts, or another fruit

Late Lunch: (3:00) this is always always always at 3pm: This changes a lot depending on what i cook or what i have available in my fridge. an example is a small portion of grilled skinless chicken breast with a medium size salad (tomatoes, cucumber, romane lettuce, avacado lemon juice)

Dinner: (6:00) i usually try to eat at 6 or 7: This changes as well but usally its the same as my late Lunch i cook enough food for two servings and i eat one serving late lunch and one for dinner
**and if for some reason which only seems to happen during my "TOM" days i end up getting cravings or feeling not full later at night around 8 or 9 i eat a late night snack usually i grab fruit or recently i baught some string cheese and i usually grab that.

Im not affraid to feed my body when i feel i am truly hungry only because i know my choices are healthy and i never count calories i guess you could but thats not the type of lifestyle i want i just want to be able to rely on my own instinct
weekends are a different story weekends are my days off because i like to confuse my body usually on weekends i eat heavier meals and i dont workout. I still eat healthy but i usually replace the salad with brown rice and instead of my regular protein i change it to a higher calory protein such as beef susage or ground turkey or fish. Sometimes i go with whole wheat pasta with all natural tomatoe souce and i eat this in portions. But like i said this changes alot and depends on what i have available.

I go grociery shopping every week to get fresh veggies and fruits. I used to always buys food on campus and i would choose somewhat healthy foods but i noticed that i spend the same amount buying food everday than i do buying grocery everyweek. So money wise its the same and i feel better know that i eat alot healthier. Im in no way an expert in what you should eat and i think you should focus on buying things that YOU enjoy. By buying thing i enjoy i dont feel like im starving myself or forceing myself to eat things i dont like this helps me avoid binge eating even on weekends "my days off" i dont go out and buy some fast food or anything Like i said i change it up and eat things i like such as pasta and rice.

This was a long post i hope i was able to give you guys some ideas of what could work for you guys. It all takes time nothing is easy and remember results should come slowly.

if you guys have any questions or comments please dont be shy i will answer any questions. Have an awesome week.

Weight update

Hey my blogger friends.....Ive been stressing like crazy this week and i cant seem to focus but the good thing is that school is over in 3 weeks which i realize will be the most stressful weeks ever but than i will have 1 month free and at home before i have to come back and take a summer class but anyways

This friday i weighed in at 138.8lbs last week i was at 141.2 thats 2.4 lb down which is awesome you guys

Like i said stress has been affecting me and truthfully i missed about 5 days of working out and to make things worst "TOM" came and everything went down down hill regarding working out and having the energy to do anything. But the good thing which i think helped me still loss weight regardless of working out or not is eating super duper healthy.

**check out my next post i will be talking about what i eat and some things that i think are helpful**

Monday, April 16, 2012

Take a look

Hey stoped by today and uploaded two new photos to my progress page. TAKE A LOOK NO BIG DIFFERENCE FROM THE LAST ONE BUT WITHOUT A DOUBT I AM PROUD OF THE PROGRESS.


Friday, April 13, 2012

weight in Friday

today i had one of the worst days of my life i was in pain this morning with no clue why and ended up staying up all morning from like 2 to 7am with pain and than having to go to class for an exam and a presentation. Longest day ever and i have to admit im feeling so much better now.

As for my weight loss i have good and bad news....This morning i weighed in at 141.2 thats so good but here is where the bad news come in...I was 141.4 last friday and than easter weekend happened. I ate super horrible i knew i had gained weight and i decided not to weigh myself because it would make my week sour and all that. So i basically am back to where i was one week ago. you could see it both as good and bad but ill take it and move forward.

The goal for April i had setup for myself was 140 i think if i continue to go in the same direction ive been going for the last 2 months i should be past 140 by the end of April so i decided to change my goal to 135 lbs im shooting very high but i hope i can atleast be 135 by the second week in May which by the way is my last week in college and than summer vacation for me :)

hope you all had a great week and enjoy your weekend i know i will be studying alot so wish me luck.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Weigh in Friday!!!

So friday is here and i woke up feeling amazing. I steped on the scale and found out im at 141.4lbs that is a 3.4lbs loss from last week...Can you imagen the smile that was on my face this morning. Well this made my day and it pushed me to do better at the gym. Im improving everyday and trying to push myself to do better in my workouts.

I think what has been helping with the weight loss like i mentioned last time.... is my eating habits. Im focusing on sticking with fresh products alot of vegtebles and less carbs. I dont have much to say but i will continue to post and keep everyone updated. Im sure by next weekend i will have some new pictures to post so watch for that.

Did i mention my boyfriend is visiting this weekend. Super excited and at the same time worried how horribly im going to end up eating. But its ok i need days off anyways so i wont stress and as soon as he heads home which will be sunday afternoon i will be back on track and hopefully have awesome news next friday.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012


Its been a week and some time since that last time i did an update. Things have been crazy with juggling everything and making sure i stay on track with school and with the weight loss.

Quick update Friday 3/30 i weighed in at 144 lbs which is a 3 lb lose from the last time i updated. That is amazing so i left march with a high note...Just a reminder my goal for APRIL is to get down to 140lbs...I have changed a couple things up so here is a quick list of those things.
1) I stoped doing the 30 day shred...It was amazing and i liked it but i wasnt seeing the results i was looking for and also i was getting board of it. (im thinking of visisting this workout once i get down to my UGW)

2) Ive still been going to the gym every morning on the eliptical 60min (interval). The last week in march i started to do 30 min on the tredmill (interval of walking and runing) and than 30 min on the eliptical( intervals)

3) ive also started to do not doing hard core or starting the program completely im only doing it when i have time and when im in the mood. (lol)

4) the most important of all...I talked to my Father about uping my monthly allowance so that i can start buying fresh food instead of buying school food. We did the math and it came out to be about the same amount. So last week i started buying fresh things and every weekend im stocking up. take this from me serously...EATING FRESH IS THE WAY TO GO...ive felt a big difference with alot of things. I dont feel bloated anymore, i feel like i have more energy, and i feel good knowing im not eating processed foods. Ive been trying to eat alot of greens because i herd that flashes your system out and i think its working but either way i love it.

This was a long update like always and i promise i will be trying to do more quick updates and keep all of you informed with what is going on. One big difference i think you will notice is that i have been focusing alot on the weight loss but i need to swich things up because school has been suffering and so i need to but weight loss on the side burner and but school first. As soon as school is over in May i will go hard core on weight loss and so lets see how things go.

Hope you all are having awesome results...stick with it...The end results are the best results for all the hardwork you put in ...and always remember give your body a rest before your body gives up on you.. one day of eating wrong wont kill you..take it and learn and move on. Lov you all

Saturday, March 24, 2012


Wow is it crazy or what that march has gone so fast and i feel as though i had no improvement ro any significant progress but again i think that is all in my head.

i konw, i have not been on my page in a couple of weeks, but the good thing is that its not because i was hiding or ashamed of anything. In actuality i have been doing great....

Let me start out with the bad news and than head into the awesome stuff. In my last post i had wrote about feeling worried that i would go home and gain weight. Well when i went home i ate horrible some days i would to portions and other days i wouldnt care. However i did do workouts during my week at home, i would walk/run with my sister in the mornings and i continued my 30 day shred program. I did feel as though i gained weight during the week of spring brake but i didnt even check my weight.

I came to school on a last sunday, this monday that passed i started exactly how i left off before spring brake hopeing that if i did gain weight i would loss and be back to where i was by this weekend.

This whole week i went to the gym every single morning and worked out for 1 hour. I finished day 17-20 of 30 day shred level 2 and starting monday ill be starting level 3. Ive decided i have been working my body way hard this week and before it gives up on me i will let it rest this weekend.

Ok i know this post is long and all you guys want to know is where am i at with my weight loss.

Well i weighed in this friday at 147.6 lbs. Ok guys that number is amazing and im proud that i have made it so far and i can see some changes in my body and my energy level. However i have to push harder than ever because its as though i feel that my body doesnt want to move from this number and as i get closer to my goal weight it gets harder.

The plan i have right know is to continue what i have been doing the remaining of March. Switch things up a little in April. Starting a new workout other than 30 day shred. The goal for April is to reach 140 lbs. I will be checking in every friday on this page so stay tuned. Hope everyones March has been great and keep up the great work sooner or later your body is going to go along with the work you put in.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Weekend Success

Hey everyone hope everyones weekend was as great as mine. This is a long post but i have much to say.

Saterday was day 5 of the 30 day shred. It was great i didnt feel any more pain from the prevouse day so i was able to do the strength training without any pain. So i also have some other news. On the weekends i dont go to the gym simply because there is way too many people and i hate figuering out what to do until a machine is free. However i really wanted to continue my strive with the workout so i didnt want to just suddenly stop. So i was looking through the workout videos i have and i came across one called Shape AB's. So i gave that one a try.

Ok first of all i want to say i didnt like it. Here is why, there is a cardio part and i gave it a try but it was way to hard to fallow and it went fast so i didnt like it at all. The only good things about this video workout was the ab section it was amazing it works every AB and i loved it. I dont think i will be doing the cardio part but whenever i want to work on my AB's i will reach for this video.

After hopeing for a good workout and not getting it i thought i would grab another video and give it a try. My sister gave me the Brazilian butt lift system and its been sitting on my desk and i never really took a look at it. So i grabbed it and read everything that came with it. I came to the conclution that i am lossing my butt and this video could possible help me to shape it and all that good stuff. Im fallowing the Lift & Shape workout schedule, the week starts monday through saterday with a rest day on sundays. I decided to give mondays workout a try to see exactly what i was getting myself into. So mondays workout is the Bum Bum.

The workout was crazy it had me sweating and hurting and i almost wanted to give up. But i didnt i pushed through and i felt great about it.

Today, Sunday
i did the Bum Bum workout again and my legs are hurting from it but i think that shows its working. After that i did the AB section of the Shape video. Later in the afternoon i did day 6 of the 30 day shred, it was great i loved it i pushed through it and i worked hard and i was sweating and i was feeling great.

I dont know but im really into the whole working out thing. Its weard because as you guys know i had not workout the entire time ive been on the weight loss journey, and know im so into it. I dont know i hope it last for a long time because it gets me up and going. The only thing im worried and in some kind of way stressing about it heading home on friday knowing that i could possibly slip and fall of the weight loss wagon. I dont want to so i will try my hardest because i love the path i am heading in and i dont want to take backward steps.

by the way did i mention my relationship with the scale is no longer the same. I only step on it the day of the weigh in which are now fridays. This shows improvement because im no longer obsessing over the weight and stuff. Im more worried about the changes i see in my body.

Ill be doing a post soon about the great results im seeing. AAHhh stay tuned

With that i let you guys go, hope everyone has a great week ill be posting as much as i can. Keep up the great work.

Friday, March 2, 2012


today is friday and i couldnt be any happier. Ok i have soooo much to say so let me get started.

I just got done doing day 4 of the 30 day shred. I got through it all good no brakes and i was pushing and giving 100%. The only thing i have to mention to anyone who is thinking of starting it is that it leaves you hurting both in your arms and legs. I thought it would only be the first or second day. But today all day i was hurting from day 3 and  i guess its good because it means im working the muscles. I will be updating as i go along so keep a look out for that.

Today is my weigh in day last time i did my weigh in was on Feb 23 and i was at 152lbs

Today March 2 148 lbs...yess you read it right....148lbs omg im in the 40's i hope i can keep going and never see the 50's again.That is 4 lbs down and im excited to see how far this journey will take me.

that is all for today and i hope i can continue and keep bringing good news to my blog. Lov u all and keep pushing

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Day 2 of the 30 day shred

Well hello everyone. I did my second day of the 30 day shred level . Woohoo im so proud because i finished it all without taking a brake and i made sure to push through it all. I was sweating like crazy thats a good thing. Hope to keep you all updated i will be doing weigh ins on fridays starting this friday. I just thinks that helps me evaluate the week and if i need a rest i will make sure it will be on the weekends instead of during the week when i have the chance to hit the gym.

talking about the gym i didnt go today i was sore from the 30 day shred and it was pouring rain outside. So basically i used up my first rest day but i still did the 30 day shred workout i makes sure to fit that in no matter what. So hopefully tomorrow its not raining and i can hit the gym in the morning. See thats something i hate about being in college. Because in the morning most machines are free and there isnt that many people, but in the afternoon starting around 10 till close there are so many people and than you have to be waiting and all that. So basically the best option is to go in the morning but my lazy butt wants to stay in bed but im pushing myself

lets see how long this last....oo and also im heading home march 10-17 and im supper excited i need a brake from school and i want to see all my family...but on the other hand evertime i go home i mess up big time... i fall into food temptation and i dont workout. But hopefully know that i am doing the 30 day shred i will continue to stay on track. Lets see how that all goes.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

30 Day Shred

Today i decided i wold start the 30 day shret. I started today on level 1 and im telling you for all you who have never tryed it trust me it is a butt kicking workout. I was doing it and some time during the end i was like i need to take a brake which really that ment im done with it. But than i thought really this workout is only 20 minutes and you cant finish i pushed myself and guess what at the end of it i felt accomplished and i think if i push myself like i did today i will finish this 30 day shred and kick some butt. Also i dont remember if i mentioned this before but hey this week has been going great because i have started to include workout into my daily routine and no im not only talking about the 30 day shred i am  class, from one class to another, from class back to my room or if im heading to a meeting and so farth.

But on friday i was board in my room taking a brake from studying and i was like ok gaby you are at 151lbs..why not try on some of the clothing that used to not fit?? ok so i go i try on some shorts i have that used to be tight and you know what they did fit and some were even loose.  but here is the issue i was proud that i could fit into the shorts however i still even with them fitting loose had a big big big muffin top. Really that is the last thing i needed to loss the weight and still have a hudge belly. The next day, on saterday i started to workout. Ive been doing some zumba and i loved it. But im not sure exactly where im heading but i do know....I need to workout if i want to have a flat stomach and no loose skin.

One of my biggest fears is to loss the weight and still have loose skin. I think its not too late to start toneing im not so focues on arms and legs but with the 30 day shred it does adress those areas so that a big plus. Ill be doing updates on the weight like always on the weekend but i can already see that this week will be a good one because i started great and i think i will contiue to push through the lazyness and focus on the UGW.

Ill post some before 30 day shred pictures took keep track if there are any changes.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Sharing some new information

Hey stopping by my blog to check up on everyones progress and i have been seeing great results. I wanted to share some news if you guys...I STARTED A TUMBLR.....its kind of weird because blogging was new to me and i still havent really gotten a perfect hold of it and i took a hudge step forward and decided to start a tumblr because i was browsing around and found so many "fitspos" and weight loss related tumblr blogs. And i have to admit they game me so much motivation and i love looking and finding photos to express exactly how i feel and think. So i wanted all you to check it out i started it today so there hasnt been alot of progress but soon it will be better and i dont know i hope this will motivate me to put 100% into my weight loss.

I will continue to post updated here because this is what i consider my diary and i will continue to post lots of pictures here. With that i will let you guys go lov u all

Thursday, February 23, 2012


WELP......i have been missing i know and i take full responsability.....Life is getting crazy and even though i should be stressed im starting to learn how to deal with issues and move on. The week has been crazy and it will soon be even more insane but i am getting prepared to work like crazy and make sure things get done. #collegestudentproblems ^__^ ( one day at a time)

On another note....I recently had the most amazing weekend. The boyfriend came to visit and even though we didnt go out staying in and watching movies was way more amazing and it was much needed. Long distance relationships are hard and whenever i get to see him i make sure i take full adventage. we had been fighting over dumb things a couple days before he came but as soon as he got here everything was forgotten. Ok so the only down fall about the visit was that we ended up eating so badly and even though i knew i could do better regarding food choices i dont regret it at all because i had the best time ever. The good thing is that i regrouped myself and that very same monday i got right back on track and it turned into not being a big deal. Im starting to see growth in myself on other occations as you guys have seen from my blog as soon as a mess up i tell myself ok you messed up so you might as well eat the entire week badly.....BUT NOT THIS TIME......

If you guys have been reading my last couple of posts i have not set up a list of goals simply because the first time around they didnt work and as i looked over them some were unrealistic and also as everyone knows there are going to be issues during the journey and crazy stuff happens. So basically i kind of hopeing to fallow a healthy goal of losing 2 lbs per week (more or less).

Here is what my weight has been looking like this last couple of weeks or should i say the month of February. I went through ups and downs. weighed in this morning and that will be included in the below list CHECK IT OUT

Feb 01---156
Feb 9---153

Ahhhhhh....i was so close to being under 150.....i will accomplish that dont worry with time and comitment i will make it
hope everyone has a wonderful week/weekend hope to update soon and lov u all

Tuesday, February 14, 2012


Valentines Day is here and love is in the air.....One of the most wonderful days and i wanted to stop by and wish everyone the best day ever. Im a believer in love and i am deeply in love with the best man in the world my boyfriend....Been with him 4 years getting close to reaching our 5 year mark and i couldnt be any happier. I love him because he accepts me for who i am, he has been by my side through the good and the bad and more than a boyfriend he is my best friend and the person i look forward to hear from each and every single day......

XOXO lov you all <3

Sunday, February 12, 2012


In the last couple of days i have noticed that i am stuck in a mind set....I feel as though i am traped in a mold that everyone expects me to be curtain way.....I want to be able to brake that mold and show who i am and what i want to be however i lack the self confidance to do it. I have been thinking and running around an idea that scares me but at the same time pushes me to make changes. Do any of you sit and think what will be of me once i lose the weight. In a dream world i would expect that once i lose the weight i will be confortable with myself and i will be more joyful and full of life. However, what if once i lose the weight i continue to be unconfident stuck in the mold i have build around my self. The mold that dictates who i am and i get scared i will always be in this mold.

So what came to mind the other day was what if i start changing things slowely along with the weight loss. I want to get rid of any drama in my life and negetive people who either put me down or dont add to my life. I know and i am realistic about the process i know confidence cant be found over night and im not expecting that but i need to be more confident and have a voice. I have always been a follower, with everything. For example if we go out to eat and you ask what do you want to order (lets say in a group) i will go with whatever the majority chooses and i dont ever speak up for what i want. In my relationship i have noticed i let him( the boyfriend) treat me as he wishes and i keep my mouth shut even when i dont think its right. I am starting to build courage to speak up and let people know what I want what I think and what I need.

basically i am giving myself two challenges and i hope i can accomplish them both. First is to lose the weight, I have noticed that my dedication to accomplish this goal has diminished to the point were if i do good im happy but when i mess up i just let it be and act like i dont care. However in order to accomplish this goal i have to get my head in the game and put my butt back in gear to make sure i do what is needed in order to set my self for success. Part of making sure im back on track is to make sure i include and make going to the gym equaly as important as my eating. So far i have been focusing on making sure i am eating right but i tend to set workout aside and even though it has been working i have noticed that as i lose the weight im still seeing my stomach hang and its because i have no core muscle let alone any muscle and i need to work on that. The second challenge like i just mentioned is to work on my voice and get myself to step out of the mold and not be afraid to look like a full because i want to be happy and enjoy every moment of my life and never look back and regret of wish i had done things differently. I want to look back and be happy i took the right decision to change my life.

hopeing things workout and wishing myself the best of luck.

Love you all

Tuesday, February 7, 2012


Well hello world....i am still alive and doing better than ever. I have been keeping myself out of blogging and all that because i have to keep my focus on school. And to be truthful i have been running like a chicken without a head going here and there and always on the go. However loves that has not stoped me from focusing on losing the weight i do regret a couple of things but most of all i regret the time that i have let go of. Its been about 2 weeks since i started school along with my weight loss journey and i wish i could be farther along and all but hey i knew from the begining that the journey was not going to be short and that i needed to put alot of work into it. I am seeing some changes not big ones but something is better than nothing.

ok so lets get to the real deal of the post....I am here to do an official weigh in....Guess i have some fantastic news my weight as of today Tuesday morning 154 lbs...Awsome right that is an 8 lbs weight loss. Im hoping i can continue to loss weight this 2 weeks that fallow because if i know my body corectly first i loss alot and than i dont. Im crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.

The only bad news like i had mentioned i have not been extercising the way i should i have not taken one single step into the gym but im trying to rap my head around it and i have to rethink alot of things regarding my schedule and all so i'm hopeing some changes will arrive soon. I know that without fully commiting to extercise my weight will either stay the same or it will go up....And There Is No Way I Will Let That Happen.

I dont want to end the blog on a bad note so i will let you guys all know MY BIRTHDAY IS THIS THURSDAY....UMMMM AND THIS GIRL IS TURNING 20. I am glad that i am making changes before i see the 20's because as soon as i loss this weight i will be living my life to the fullest and my 20's should be the greatest years of my life. WELL LOVES UNTILL NEXT POST...TAKE CARE AND REMEMBER INNER BEAUTY SHOULD SOON REFLECT ON THE OUTSIDE.

Friday, January 27, 2012


I was hopeing that this semester in school would be amazing and i would finish up my required classes and right smoothly to my junior year.But things are not turning out this way, I have been faced with problem after problem with classes and know with money BLAHHH. I have finaly realized i was puting too much pressure on myself to get everything donw and instead of helping it was hurting me and so i decided to take a step back and slow down. With this said i am hopeing to focus more on the minimal amout of classes i am taking and fit extercise into my daily routine without any excuses.

I have been feeling super tired this week and im thinking that once i start extercising it might help bring up my energy level. This is the 3rd or 4th time im restarting the weight loss and who ever does read this blog post is probably thinking here we go again how long is this girl going to last. Well hello there reader, i have my ups and downs like everyone else i will fail but i will get back one my feet. Sooner or later i will reach my goals and once i reach them i will never look back.

on another note im missing home so much and my birthday is comeing up and not having many friends makes me feel depressed instead of happy and excited. I hope i can get through these next couple of weeks and just get used to being back in school and let go of the home sick feeling.


Saturday, January 21, 2012


I have been MIA for sometime now. I have no excuses other than the fact that i have not been staying on track and i have gained weight...not as bad as it seems im at 161lbs. More or less i am still at a good weight to restart this weight loss journey....I have been really down this week for different reasones mainly the brake i just went through with my boyfriend and the worst part is that i am back in school and i feel down and sad. Hopefully i can overcome all this and focus on school and losing weight i think this is exactly what i will be doing eating, breathing and living school and weight loss. I have not yet though about what exactly i will be doing because i do want to head to the gym but, the only big issue is that its winter and i dont know how good i will be with getting up early and heading to the cold cold cold outdoors and walk to the gym....i have to be realistic and i wont know any of my plans untill i go through one entire week of school and see when i have time and all that. I thought i would come on here and document THE NEW BEGINING...Today, ill probably be blogging alot more know that the boyfriend isnt in the picture there will be alot of pictures and expresssion of my feelings. Im done hiding my face and being emberresed because i know at the every end i will be in a different place in life and i will look back and be proud to no be the same person.....I am being more open know and i want all of the readers reading this to hit me up ask questions and i will be answering and i hope that i will be adding alot of intresting things to my blog  and keep it up to date......Thanks for all those who are still fallowing and those who stop by here and there WISH ME LUCK :)

Monday, January 2, 2012


wow long time since the last post!!! i have so much stuff to update on here......ready.....Let me start of by telling you guys how my christmas and new years was. Christmas was fun for the most part on the 24th we whent to my sisters house and had a big family reunion and did a gift exchange and for the first time in 4 years my boyfriend went with me and oficialy met the family :) the only thing that sucked was that i had to work the next morning but it was well worth it because the check was, money, money......For new years we had a family get together as well even though we didnt stay until 12 but it was fun seeing the cousins and laughing so much, the boyfriend didnt go and i didnt get to see him and it was weird starting the new year without him :( we got into a fight over what? i wouldnt know...And the next morning the 1st i worked. So as you can all see the pattern of my life right know i work work work. Right know things are way crazy i wake up at 5:30 head to work come home 3:30 work on my online class, take a nap, and than around 8 or 9 i go out to see the boyfriend head home at 10 and fall asleep to start my day again.....with all that said i have not been working on losing weight at all...bad choice but know that the new year is here and im heading back to school on the 20th i am ready to start over and stay on the right track to wonderland...( if it excits)....YOU GUYS GUESSED IT MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTION IS TO LOSE WEIGHT...MORE SPECIFICALY 30 LBS.

the weight right know as of this morning 158 lbs.. that is not bad at all given the fact that i have not been working out or watching what i eat...but most of all because i work at DD (dunkin donuts)..good news is i have not touched any donut there and i think the reason why i have not gained much weight is because my schedule like said is all over the place and i find myself eating once or twice and sometimes im so tired or stressed that i dont eat i think i can start this journey by setting a specific time when i can extercise even if its just here at my house for 1 hour most likely i will dance around and do some weight or excersie videos i have.

I will begin to blog once again not everyday but here and there and for weigh ins but this time around i will weight in every 2 weeks and once im in school trust me i will get my butt back in gear and i will head to the gym rain or snow

OMG i cant believe i didnt mention this earlier but for the new year i thought why not start the year with a big bang...soo i got a haircut with a completly different style than what i normaly go for... Im a layered long simple haircut....I stuck to the long layered part but i went for the BANGS....adding some drama to my look and i have been thinking about setting some goals and once i reach them i will reward or do something new.

i know for sure one of them which will probably be the last one will be to cut my hair in a BOB....something short and cute that will show off my face. Another one will be rewarding myself with either a gym membership or kickboxing classes once im home for the summer. Another will be something simple like buying a makeup kit i have been the way i never wear makeup so i think that would be a good reward....and for sure i will be giving myself a shopping trip once i reach my goal weight, i will get a joicer or something nutricianal that will help my weight loss.

nothing is set in stone yet but i will make something official once i make up my mind and i will make a set of goals not like before...reach a weight at this i think i will do weight intervals once i reach losing 10lbs, 15lbs, 20 lbs, 25 lbs, 30 lbs.

Any ideas i would love to hear and im looking forward to new things to come and reading everyones blog and I WISH EVERYONE A WONDERFUL 2012!!! LETS MAKE IT COUNT..

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