IM STILL HERE

Well hello world....i am still alive and doing better than ever. I have been keeping myself out of blogging and all that because i have to keep my focus on school. And to be truthful i have been running like a chicken without a head going here and there and always on the go. However loves that has not stoped me from focusing on losing the weight i do regret a couple of things but most of all i regret the time that i have let go of. Its been about 2 weeks since i started school along with my weight loss journey and i wish i could be farther along and all but hey i knew from the begining that the journey was not going to be short and that i needed to put alot of work into it. I am seeing some changes not big ones but something is better than nothing.

ok so lets get to the real deal of the post....I am here to do an official weigh in....Guess i have some fantastic news my weight as of today Tuesday morning 154 lbs...Awsome right that is an 8 lbs weight loss. Im hoping i can continue to loss weight this 2 weeks that fallow because if i know my body corectly first i loss alot and than i dont. Im crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.

The only bad news like i had mentioned i have not been extercising the way i should i have not taken one single step into the gym but im trying to rap my head around it and i have to rethink alot of things regarding my schedule and all so i'm hopeing some changes will arrive soon. I know that without fully commiting to extercise my weight will either stay the same or it will go up....And There Is No Way I Will Let That Happen.

I dont want to end the blog on a bad note so i will let you guys all know MY BIRTHDAY IS THIS THURSDAY....UMMMM AND THIS GIRL IS TURNING 20. I am glad that i am making changes before i see the 20's because as soon as i loss this weight i will be living my life to the fullest and my 20's should be the greatest years of my life. WELL LOVES UNTILL NEXT POST...TAKE CARE AND REMEMBER INNER BEAUTY SHOULD SOON REFLECT ON THE OUTSIDE.

STRESS BE GONE

I was hopeing that this semester in school would be amazing and i would finish up my required classes and right smoothly to my junior year.But things are not turning out this way, I have been faced with problem after problem with classes and know with money BLAHHH. I have finaly realized i was puting too much pressure on myself to get everything donw and instead of helping it was hurting me and so i decided to take a step back and slow down. With this said i am hopeing to focus more on the minimal amout of classes i am taking and fit extercise into my daily routine without any excuses.

I have been feeling super tired this week and im thinking that once i start extercising it might help bring up my energy level. This is the 3rd or 4th time im restarting the weight loss and who ever does read this blog post is probably thinking here we go again how long is this girl going to last. Well hello there reader, i have my ups and downs like everyone else i will fail but i will get back one my feet. Sooner or later i will reach my goals and once i reach them i will never look back.

on another note im missing home so much and my birthday is comeing up and not having many friends makes me feel depressed instead of happy and excited. I hope i can get through these next couple of weeks and just get used to being back in school and let go of the home sick feeling.

                    162lbs

MOVING ALONG

I have been MIA for sometime now. I have no excuses other than the fact that i have not been staying on track and i have gained weight...not as bad as it seems im at 161lbs. More or less i am still at a good weight to restart this weight loss journey....I have been really down this week for different reasones mainly the brake i just went through with my boyfriend and the worst part is that i am back in school and i feel down and sad. Hopefully i can overcome all this and focus on school and losing weight i think this is exactly what i will be doing eating, breathing and living school and weight loss. I have not yet though about what exactly i will be doing because i do want to head to the gym but, the only big issue is that its winter and i dont know how good i will be with getting up early and heading to the cold cold cold outdoors and walk to the gym....i have to be realistic and i wont know any of my plans untill i go through one entire week of school and see when i have time and all that. I thought i would come on here and document THE NEW BEGINING...Today, ill probably be blogging alot more know that the boyfriend isnt in the picture there will be alot of pictures and expresssion of my feelings. Im done hiding my face and being emberresed because i know at the every end i will be in a different place in life and i will look back and be proud to no be the same person.....I am being more open know and i want all of the readers reading this to hit me up ask questions and i will be answering and i hope that i will be adding alot of intresting things to my blog  and keep it up to date......Thanks for all those who are still fallowing and those who stop by here and there WISH ME LUCK :)

2012

wow long time since the last post!!! i have so much stuff to update on here......ready.....Let me start of by telling you guys how my christmas and new years was. Christmas was fun for the most part on the 24th we whent to my sisters house and had a big family reunion and did a gift exchange and for the first time in 4 years my boyfriend went with me and oficialy met the family :) the only thing that sucked was that i had to work the next morning but it was well worth it because the check was great...money, money, money......For new years we had a family get together as well even though we didnt stay until 12 but it was fun seeing the cousins and laughing so much, the boyfriend didnt go and i didnt get to see him and it was weird starting the new year without him :( we got into a fight over what? i wouldnt know...And the next morning the 1st i worked. So as you can all see the pattern of my life right know i work work work. Right know things are way crazy i wake up at 5:30 head to work come home 3:30 work on my online class, take a nap, and than around 8 or 9 i go out to see the boyfriend head home at 10 and fall asleep to start my day again.....with all that said i have not been working on losing weight at all...bad choice but know that the new year is here and im heading back to school on the 20th i am ready to start over and stay on the right track to wonderland...( if it excits)....YOU GUYS GUESSED IT MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTION IS TO LOSE WEIGHT...MORE SPECIFICALY 30 LBS.

the weight right know as of this morning 158 lbs.. that is not bad at all given the fact that i have not been working out or watching what i eat...but most of all because i work at DD (dunkin donuts)..good news is i have not touched any donut there and i think the reason why i have not gained much weight is because my schedule like said is all over the place and i find myself eating once or twice and sometimes im so tired or stressed that i dont eat much......so i think i can start this journey by setting a specific time when i can extercise even if its just here at my house for 1 hour most likely i will dance around and do some weight or excersie videos i have.

I will begin to blog once again not everyday but here and there and for weigh ins but this time around i will weight in every 2 weeks and once im in school trust me i will get my butt back in gear and i will head to the gym rain or snow

OMG i cant believe i didnt mention this earlier but for the new year i thought why not start the year with a big bang...soo i got a haircut with a completly different style than what i normaly go for... Im a layered long simple haircut....I stuck to the long layered part but i went for the BANGS....adding some drama to my look and i have been thinking about setting some goals and once i reach them i will reward or do something new.


i know for sure one of them which will probably be the last one will be to cut my hair in a BOB....something short and cute that will show off my face. Another one will be rewarding myself with either a gym membership or kickboxing classes once im home for the summer. Another will be something simple like buying a makeup kit i have been wanting....by the way i never wear makeup so i think that would be a good reward....and for sure i will be giving myself a shopping trip once i reach my goal weight, i will get a joicer or something nutricianal that will help my weight loss.

nothing is set in stone yet but i will make something official once i make up my mind and i will make a set of goals not like before...reach a weight at this time...no i think i will do weight intervals once i reach losing 10lbs, 15lbs, 20 lbs, 25 lbs, 30 lbs.


Any ideas i would love to hear and im looking forward to new things to come and reading everyones blog and I WISH EVERYONE A WONDERFUL 2012!!! LETS MAKE IT COUNT..

GETTING BACK ON TRACK

Hey everyone, This is my last week with finals and finally once i go home for 1 month i will be able to focus 100% on weigth loss well actually not 100% but close enough i will be working which sucks because i work at DD....too many temptations....and i will also be takeing an online class but for the most part i will be working out and keeping up with the healthy eating. Check out the tab with my pictures, scroll down and i added two new photos because i want to continue keeping track of my progress there hasnt been much. I have stuck between 157-155 some days are better than others but i hope i can finally see 154 on the scale some time soon. Keep checking in i will continue to post as much as i can. Hopeing everyone is still doing good on the wieght loss keep looking forward and things will happen slow but surely :)

HERE AND THERE

i have been all over the place this week finishing homework starting projects studying for finals. My heads seem to not be in the right place regarding losing weight but i have been eating healthy except for this friday i am starting to run short on the money i have and well i ended up getting 6 burgers form the doller menue but mind you i did not eat them the same day. It ate 3 that friday and 3 that saterday. Today sunday well i have no idea what i will be eating i might have to take out my noodle soups. I was dreading the idea of steping on the scale because like i just said i have not been focusing much if at all on the weight loss and well i have come on here to give a quick update. I have been trying to reach my goal of getting to 145 but that is far from happening i was hopeing to get there by christmas...not happening lets try and see if i can make it by new years that would be awsome to start fresh and at a good weight. by time i get to 145 i will be at a healthe BMI but my ultimate goal is to get in the 130's by summer.

I wanted to mention to you guys that i downloaded an app omg amazing like i said i have been running like crazy and i dont have to time to keep things on track but with this app i have been keeping track of my weight almost daily to see the difference and stuff ****quick mention i was PMSing this week so the weight when up and down**** The apps name is Simple Weight Recording**** the name says it all it is simple to use and it shows you a graph of how your weight moves and also it gives you your BMI with every entry and the best part it keeps count of how much weight you have lost from the very beging and how far away you are from your goal weight, and also the difference from the prevous weight entry.

Dec. 1: 163****28.9

Dec. 7: 159****28.2

Dec. 11: 156***27.7

Weight goal: 130 lbs

Diff from goal: 26.6 lbs

Total loss: 21.4  lbs



ok so i am doing good and i am on track too bad this was the weight i was at before i went home for thanksgiving and i eneded up gaining 5 lbs and so i am back to 156 but this is my last week in school and than i am heading home for 1 month i pray i lose weight instead of gaining. But who knows guys wish me luck and im wishing luck upon you guys too everyone focus and stay on track. I cant weight for christmas except for the food.

WELL HELLO

ive been missing for some time but i have been behind the screen still checking how everyone is doing and i see such great things going on with everyone. Well i have some good and bad news and a little of rambling but here i go. The bad news is that i lost all motivation after i came back to school from thanksgiving brake as i had mentioned i was doing youtube videos and was posting updates and all that but after realising how bad i did back home i decided that the reason i think i did so bad is because i never had a good reason to loss weight besides to be happy and look good which are good reasons but not good enough to keep me away from the bad food and poor decisions i make when i am faced with temptation. For example let me explain to you guys something that not even i came to realise. When i am in college i could say i am faced with temptation but not really because i choose what places to step into when i go buy my lunch and my dinner. However when i am home most of the time i dont get to decide what my mom cooks, where my boyfriend decided to eat. So when i was placed in situations such as these i brake down and give up on my diet. So basically what i am trying to say is that i realised i have no self control and i dont have the motivation i need.

Quick confesion as soon as i realised i had gained weight over thanksgiving i gave up even worst and i ate horrible in school and my mind was thinking well i already messed up might as well enjoy it HORRIBLE WAY OF THINKING AND I KNOW THAT BUT THAT DIDNT STOP ME I ATE AND ATE AND ATE WITHOUT ANY CARE IN THE WORLD. but yesterday as i sat here on my computer seeing how everyone is doing so great and everyone has their ups and downs i decided that i cant giveup there is no way i have worked my butt off to get to the weight i am at right know to let it go because of mistakes. I have restart and renew everything. so here i am again and even though i cant say that weight loss will be my main focus because this next two weeks school is actually going to be my main focus because finals are here and i need to study like crazy and pull some all nighters which are not good for your health but sometimes i have no options.

ok so i dont have an actual plan like i did before. I dont want to set up goals i think all i am going to do is let things happen i will be weighting in weekly and seeing if there is any progress i will be doing body shots every 3 weeks depending how much weight i loss or whatever. I will be coming on here and posting random things such as how i think im doing or if i find something fun or intresting to put up. i dont think i will be doing youtube videos or anything like for know i think i will let you guys know about if i decide to do some or whatever i decide to do. For now i will be low key like i said letting things happen. I will be watching what i eat but not religiously like i did before.

Also i have to mention i will be going home on december 16 for christmas brake. I will be home for 1 month and i am scared but i will try this time around to do alot better i am thinking of either joing the gym or taking some kickboxing classes with my sister and sister in law. I will focus on eating healthy but i dont know how well that will go but we will have to wait to see how things turn out.



And very quickly my weigh in today 161lbs